[ but he pulls the impulse to snap at him back, bites his tongue for a moment before the rest comes out in a rush: ]
He shouldn't be saying those things and he shouldn't have called you that. No one should because you're better and you're good and for some reason, you don't acknowledge it. You've done all these things to prove you're better and stronger than you were before, but it's like it's never enough for you. It's like you're constantly in this cycle of "I'm not good enough" and it's... stupid.
[ he's stupid. everything's stupid. ]
I don't care what happens to me, okay? I don't. I was dead back home and I have nothing to return to, so just let me do the dumb, ugly stuff. [ like threatening crazy scientists. ] You have a future to go back to. You have people waiting for you. People who care about you.
I have a place to go back to. This is what you have. I'm going to protect it--and you--no matter what. What happens to me here, it doesn't really matter. When I go back, I'll go back, and I'll be fine. If some crazy scientist is planning on doing anything, I'm not gonna let it happen.
It's because you're dead back home that I'm doing this.
[ he's. not gonna touch that whole 'not good enough' thing. ]
[ he doesn't even want to be here, this shitty place in shitty outer space and he definitely doesn't want riku to protect him. but he doesn't say that because riku is Good and likes helping people and the whole thing is moot anyway. so he's not gonna touch that part either. ]
Yes, it does matter. What's gonna happen to all your friends if something happens to you? You think they want to see you getting hurt for their sake all the time?
Maybe. But it's good that it was you instead of someone else like Larxene.
[ it's out before he can take it back and his breath hitches just slightly, as if realizing his mistake. but he doesn't try to take it back because this is a fundamental truth: what better way to die than to be destroyed by your original? replicas were doomed from existence and the closest bonds he's had were with riku and namine.
[ there's a rough sound, short and indignant. he's still unsure how to to feel about him, but the fact that he was indirectly the cause of riku's death doesn't really help his opinion of him. ]
Yeah he'll be all right. His fever's under control now and he's under house arrest until he's back on his feet. I tossed him in one of the empty spare rooms in the west wing. Visiting hours are 2 to 6.
[ does he really want to go and visit him and potentially have to run into sora and potentially have to deal with more gross mushy lovey dovey stuff between lea and riku.
... no fuck that.
maybe he'll just visit later at night. lea isn't the boss of him he can visit his original any time he pleases. ]
ok does his boss know he's out and is his bat gonna stay with you ?
[Dude they're not even that gross okay shut up gosh. He was kidding about the visiting hours anyway grow a sense of humor.]
Yeah I left a message with his boss. And no, Luna's gonna stay with him, I think she'd suck my blood or something if I tried to make her come with me. I'll stay here tonight to make sure his fever doesn't come back either way.
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It'd feel a bit like home, wouldn't it? And I was just starting to miss those freakishly white walls.
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I'm saying it sounds like you're trying too hard.
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He shouldn't be saying those things and he shouldn't have called you that. No one should because you're better and you're good and for some reason, you don't acknowledge it. You've done all these things to prove you're better and stronger than you were before, but it's like it's never enough for you. It's like you're constantly in this cycle of "I'm not good enough" and it's... stupid.
[ he's stupid. everything's stupid. ]
I don't care what happens to me, okay? I don't. I was dead back home and I have nothing to return to, so just let me do the dumb, ugly stuff. [ like threatening crazy scientists. ] You have a future to go back to. You have people waiting for you. People who care about you.
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I--
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I have a place to go back to. This is what you have. I'm going to protect it--and you--no matter what. What happens to me here, it doesn't really matter. When I go back, I'll go back, and I'll be fine. If some crazy scientist is planning on doing anything, I'm not gonna let it happen.
It's because you're dead back home that I'm doing this.
[ he's. not gonna touch that whole 'not good enough' thing. ]
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Yes, it does matter. What's gonna happen to all your friends if something happens to you? You think they want to see you getting hurt for their sake all the time?
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You died?
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Y... yeah.
[ quickly; ]
It was nothing. Definitely not as bad as yours. [ distract distract distract ]
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[ calling bullshit. ]
Mine wasn't that bad. What happened?
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Maybe. But it's good that it was you instead of someone else like Larxene.
[ it's out before he can take it back and his breath hitches just slightly, as if realizing his mistake. but he doesn't try to take it back because this is a fundamental truth: what better way to die than to be destroyed by your original? replicas were doomed from existence and the closest bonds he's had were with riku and namine.
he wouldn't have wanted it any other way. ]
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... I guess.
[ a pause; ]
I pushed Axel out of the way when a building was collapsing.
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How did you come back?
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But with the system offline, now... I think we'd stay dead.
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smart move real thing.
is he ok?
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I know right?
Yeah he'll be all right. His fever's under control now and he's under house arrest until he's back on his feet. I tossed him in one of the empty spare rooms in the west wing. Visiting hours are 2 to 6.
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... no fuck that.
maybe he'll just visit later at night. lea isn't the boss of him he can visit his original any time he pleases. ]
ok
does his boss know he's out
and is his bat gonna stay with you
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Yeah I left a message with his boss. And no, Luna's gonna stay with him, I think she'd suck my blood or something if I tried to make her come with me. I'll stay here tonight to make sure his fever doesn't come back either way.
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does he need anyone to cover his shift or whatever
ok
he'll probably cut you if you try to take him to the clinic anyway
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That I'm not sure about. You could check with his boss, Roslyn, she's like head police lady or something.
And yeah, he prolly would, so I'd prefer to avoid that. He's out of the woods for the time being, at least.
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it better stay that way
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